A Good Day

Today ended up being better than I expected.

I woke up and could barely get myself to take a shower before taking Sadie to her doctors appointment. I was dreading all three appointments I had to go to and I was starting to ask God Why me? Why do I have to be the one who has cancer and why right after I have a baby and why right when Keith is going back to school? I was feeling pretty down but I knew the days events had to happen so I put down my coffee cup, got out of my chair and got ready for the day.

The first appointment was for Sadie's tongue "tie" issue and it turns out the the doctor didn't think it was necessary since Sadie is eating fine and gaining weight.....I was kinda relieved since I knew watching my little baby scream from the procedure wasn't going to be easy. The doctor said that maybe having a good first appointment of the day was a sign that the rest of the day would go well also. I thought...ya that would be nice but God's been stretching me so much lately I'm not sure today is the day that He's going to give me a break.

The second appointment was for me...I needed to get my stitches taken out from my biopsy site on my neck. I was a little nervous about it since I'd never had stitches before and I had to wait for a while since the doctor was stuck in surgery....but it ended up being painless....yea! Just one more appointment to go.

The third appointment was to my oncologist to find out the results of the PET/CT scan and what stage the cancer is at. I knew going into the PET I was at a stage 2 but I had been trying to prepare myself for stages 3 or 4. Keith and I had to wait over an hour to see the doctor and when he finally came in he showed us the films of the scan.....I was only glowing in my neck and chest! Thank the Lord! I was in shock.....God is finally giving me a little break....I'm only at a stage 2! I will still have to go through 12 weeks of chemo and then radiation but it sounds like that should hopefully do the trick. I know the road is still going to be hard and I'm still in the fight of my life but it gives me hope to know the cancer didn't spread further through my body during my pregnancy. I will have a pic line (an IV placed in my upper arm that will stay for the 12 weeks of chemo. to administer the drugs) put in hopefully on Tuesday and my first treatment is scheduled for Thursday at this point.

Thank you for all your prayers and sorry this post is so late. When Keith and I finally got home around 6pm I was back on mommy duty and this is the first chance I've had to sit at the computer to share my day with you.